October 6, 2010

Another story about coming home



When I got off the plane in Ghana, I had the strongest urge to press my forehead to the ground

to open my arms and hug the earth.

To squeeze the belly of this land I had thought so much about and learned so much about,

this land I had loved so and hated so.


This place, this great, big, -smack- in my face called
Africa, Mother, Home.


How did I resist laying my chest in the soil and watching it move the earth beneath me?

The swift pounding of my heart on the land I used to know.
Axe
Rachel

September 11, 2010

The Washington Roast


So, as many of you know, I just moved to Washington DC. and now that I'm in the capitol you may expect this blog to be more politically motivated and socially critical... well, you've got the socially critical part right. Since the big move out of New York, I am constantly reminded of how much of a New Yorker I am. No bagels, no greasy NY pizza, the stores, including CVS, on my block close at 10pm. WTF! I know people who live in DC love it but I'm sorry, your metro may be cleaner than the subway, but it's also expensive for no reason, doesn't run all night and doesn't offer a monthy unlimited card.

Despite these qualms however, there is only one thing that is truly disturbing and un-fathomable here in DC: The average white female aged 18-35 and their choice of clothing. Let me clarify up front that I am leaving black women and asian (east asian too) out of this roast because quite frankly, chocolate city is doing it, or trying to do it, which is much more than I can say for their no-melanin counterpart.


So, I will employ pictures to help show you what's wrong with these washingtonian women.
Here is Case A (the most common case)



Why? Why do these women actually wear big clonky-looking like your frat boyfriend's leather flip-flop with a beatiful feminine summer dress? Enough to make me throw up in my mouth a lil bit. All sorts of beautiful sandals are in style right now. Gladiators, beaded, ankle strap sandals; why not put something pretty on your feet to go with your pretty dress?


So, now see Case B.



Now, these are the women who are walking to Capitol hill to work with Obama. No wonder, Michelle's not worried about any fast interns "lewinsky"ing her man. This look is a) NOT professional and b) NOT sexy, cute, not even ok. Why wear the college flip flops when comfy and cute flats in every color are available and in style? I will never understand.


And the worst is this, Case C


Do these shoes look familiar? Of course! Thay are the kind of sandals you wore to your 8th grade dance when most of the girls where still taller then the boys.
In 1994 = CUTE In 2010 = HellNAW
So what is up with pairing your junior high prom sandals with a short dress to go out at night in DC? With so many beautiful shoes to pick from regardless of your budget, there is NO excuse for this. Ive seen DSW, Ive see H&M, Ive seen an Aldo here in DC area. If the sistas' shoes game are bangin then there's no reason for the high school musical kitten heel sandal. NONE. This is not what you wear with a freakum dress to go to the club.
Why not try something like this next time your going to the club?


OK, so thats it for my superficial outburst of the day. DC women, you know who you are, New York is in the house now and I'm watching you...

AXE

November 23, 2009

The Holiday Spirit


Yes, this Thursday we will be celebrating my favorite holiday, Thanksgiving and then slowly sink into the depressive hell that is Christmas season.

Thanksgiving, to me, is one of the few holidays that has kept it's integrity despite the poisonous commercialization that has captured and killed Christmas and Valentines day.

As a matter of fact, Thanksgiving is miraculou
s in that it's foundations are the most problematic and un-morally sound of our holidays with Columbus Day perhaps leading the "fucked up holidays we choose to blindly celebrate" list.

Now, if you don't know what I mean, please take a second to revisit all those pleasant kindergarten memories of natives and pilgrims eating turkey and corn together happily and then watch the video link below.


http://www.babelgum.com/4012129/kids-reenact-the-first-thanksgiving.html

"
Hello Savages!" HaHaHa

That is the truest representation of America's Pilgrim and Native relationship outside of some boring scholarly texts you could pick up at your local library. And I encourage teachers to share this video with their students. We need to stop lying to our children. They already know the world isn't all unicorns and rainbows and that some people are just plain mean for no reason; they are called
bullies. So stop feeding our children that crap about the pilgrims being nice people.

As for Black Friday... the stores can go to hell.
With what money am I gonna buy your discounted shit with?

Nope, I'm going to spend Thursday being thankful that I can drink a beer, watch the game, stuff my belly with a 9 months worth of food baby, and sleep until Monday.

What else is there to be thankful for? ... Maybe that Bush is out of Office. Thank God for that!

Would you like a small pox blanket?

October 5, 2009

The Roommate/ Room-ache

The word "roommate" can evoke fear in the hearts of most, ice-cold shivers to sliver down one's spine and grown ass men to curl up into a ball and cry like babies especially if you've lived through college roommate horror stories. We've all heard of them: too dirty, too clean, she's a slut or she's a prude, he never leaves the room, he plays guitar hero all day, he smells or she steals my stuff. That's just the tip of the iceberg. I myself have been pretty lucky in the roommate pool. Sure, freshman year I had a messy, blonde, lesbian, clepto-maniac, daddy's lil rich girl, coke-head roommate who was arrested the day after moving into our freshman dorm at NYU but she never really bothered me and on an even more positive side, she provided me with a butt-load of great stories to share with family and friends.

So after four years of evading the roomate from hell, here I am, 23 years old, and its finally caught up with me. The thing is, though, that this is not my first time living with this girl. I never had a problem before, but somehow, after four years of college, I have ended up back in my mother's house and she's the craziest roommate I've ever seen.

I know plenty of other college alumnis who came back home and experienced the shittiness of living with your parents again, however, their gripes usually revolve around their parents lack of respect for their independence and their parents treating them like children again.

No. My problem revolves around something completely different:

My mother doesn’t like the sink to be wet and she can’t stand when the garbage can is full of garbage. OK. Now let’s take a minute to ponder this as I did the first time she twisted her face into a disapproving chagrin and stated these “you’re living back in my house, kiddo” guidelines.

The sink, I mulled over in my head, that’s sole purpose is to hold and dispense water, can’t be wet? SMH

Not to mention our clear plastic garbage can with the white garbage bag wrapped meticulously inside and over its rims to catch any food scraps, tissues, or general garbage should not have garbage inside of it?


Puzzling, I know, and you better believe that I quickly stated the inherent irony to my mother. Her response was that it’s not the water, per say, that bothers her; it’s the water spots that are left on the sink when it has not been dried properly that gets under her skin. And as for the garbage, well obviously, we shouldn’t leave garbage hanging around inside the garbage can because it is dirty.

In a week we probably go through 5 disposed paper towel rolls used to dry the outside and inside of the sink every time I filled up a cup of water or washed my hands and 52 trips downstairs, into the garage, to empty the garbage cans.

My mother is the type to rearrange the dishwasher according to her special dishwasher loading design which apparently optimizes our dishwasher's washing ability and rearrange the contents inside our refrigerator so that it is aesthetically pleasing when you open it to reach for the milk carton.

Im in the worst kind of hell. It's not as if she just lives in her OCCD (overly compulsively clean disorder) world and doesn't bother me either. No, she bothers me every day about how after I shower, the shower doors must be left approximately 15% open on both sides so that the air from the window will dry it properly. I live with Mother Monk.

On the good side, I have never felt such a deep and concentrated inspiration to apply to graduate school and get the fuck out of here as I do now. But until I am accepted into some school and have a means to leave my roommate/mother in her disinfected and color-coordinated world, I'm on that new diet regimen where I don't eat anything and definetely don't drink anything ... Damnit! I refuse to use the goddamn sink! I'll swallow my spit, thank you, and tell myself it's worth it considering how good my reflection of me in my skinny jeans looks while I windex the shower handles.

Axe, Rachel

October 1, 2009

After a Long Depressing Day: Part I




I have literally sat in the same spot since 10am this morning (its now 5pm) revising and re-writing personal statements for my graduate school applications and after all the coffee and pink "focus" vitamin water what to I have to show? Something I could've posted on this blog. LMAO

I'm not saying that the content of my blogs are poor. Really, I love this blog and I like my writing voice BUT... it's probably not the appropriate tone for a graduate school essay. In my defense though, my essay has all the important information like what I want to research and why. It has a high 3+ syllable/word ratio. But for some reason I can't help but feel like the graduate school admissions committee is going to read my essay and laugh. And not just that either. After they laugh and discard my essay into the environmentally friendly paper shredder, they will pick up my transcript and fold it over to scrape their little poodle, Froo-Froo's, hot wet shit off the sidewalk.

Too much?

I guess my point is that my "educated, intelligent, young woman" swagger's been compromised. I blame the 142 job offers I've applied to and all the cover lette
rs I had to personalize and follow-up e-mails that I've sent while those shmucks in the hiring department haven't even bothered to send a mass e-mail stating that the position has been filled. >Sigh.<


With the loss of my swag and this depressing job search, how does one fight off the onset of depression? Usually, I'd say with retail therapy, however for obvious reasons, that will only stir up more conflict with bill collectors.

No. Instead I have found solace in laughing at people who have it worse than me right now. Like take Kanye West for example. He always brings a bright smile to my face. All that money, fame and talent... but I bet he'll never be invited to another awards show, ever! HAhahaha. And how about my depressing 23rd birthday... Well, that will be overshadowed by my cousin's 30th birthday two short days after mine. DAMN. Turning 30 must REALLY suck. HAHHAHAHA.


And on that note, I'm feeling rather swaggalicious. Must be that "I'm still in my 20's" swag!

Axe, Rachel

July 7, 2009

Long Live the King!


Today is a day that will be forever marked in history; and not because Honduras, after a violent military coup against it’s democratically elected president, has decided to mediate their political crisis. Nor because today marks almost a month since Iran has broke out in bloody protests and shady media coverts. No, today, there is only one thing to talk about; only one focus for every breathing person in the entire world, including some random rice farmers in Timbuktu and it’s the Michael Jackson Tribute.

With a star studded cast, live television coverage on several TV networks including CNN and MTV and millions of viewers worldwide, it was nice to see the world stop burning for one second to admire a brave and beautiful cultural icon… excuse me, the cultural icon of the Century. Even the persistent, depressive rain in NY subsided for a while in honor of the King.

And while watching the tribute and all of the people whose hearts Michael Jackson has touched, from Magic Johnson to John Mayer to his 3 children, all I could think was “Fuck all the Michael, haters! And yes that includes Kat fuckin’ Williams!”

It seems like now, in death, people have realized the huge disservice and pressure the media placed on a man who had grown up pretty much entirely in the lime light. Can you stop for a second and imagine, I mean really imagine that type of pressure? Really? Imagine how you felt at that big game in high school, in front of all your family, friends and neighbors playing for a college scholarship or to impress the girl of your dreams… Now imagine that magnified by a million, complicated by shitloads of money and how it would be to feel the weight of all those expectations, of your nerves, of your fears, of defeat and humiliation being thrown onto you non- stop since you were 5 years old. >DAMN<

Yes, I think for that reason, the media could’ve cut Michael a lil slack. Shit, give the guy a fucking break.

Especially since Michael was unarguably one of the most generous and humanitarian celebrities the world has ever seen. He was always pushing for some cause, trying to get people to care about the environment and African babies way before Angelina Jolie made adopting them cool. Even in death his generosity is insurmountable considering how he has left 20% of his estate to various charities.

So, all you Michael haters can go play in traffic. Who on this earth can touch Michael? Madonna? That bitch stole an African baby and tried to call it adoption! I don’t think so. Elvis? Puhlease! We all know Elvis stole his sound from niggas. The Beatles? Close but they have not transcended racial barriers and cultural lines like Michael has. You can go to the smallest, most remote village in the smallest town, in some barely inhabited island off the coast of nowhere and for sure, all 10 people in that village have heard of Michael and love his music.

That is why today will be remembered for years and years to come as the day the world bowed it’s head in consideration and whispered “Long Live the King!”


June 16, 2009

The Importance of Bottled Water

Need I Say More?

*Warning this blog engages adult content*


This past weekend after a fun Friday night at Star Lounge, my family and I got to talking about being in a relationship and clubbin’. If you’re in a serious relationship with someone, do you stop partying to stay home and boo-love? Do you go out partying with your other or leave him/her at home?

I, personally, like going to a party with my boo every now and again. It’s like foreplay (Yes, I said it!) I dust off my freakum dress and slip on my faux-boutins (fake Louboutins). It’s fun to go out with your man and be the baddest bitch in the club, having other people conspicuously staring while you’re whining up on your boo in the corner; you both get a little tipsy and after an hour in the club, DAMN, you’ll be making excuses to your friends like, “Oh, I gotta go right now. I think I left the iron on...and face down on my bed…yeah… I'm gonna go... NOW. Bye!” Sprinting out the club, heels in your hand, trying to get home with your boo, ASAP.

Then there’s Ladies Night or Out with the Boys Night, and that’s a necessity to every relationship’s sanity. Sometimes you just need to pull yourself away from your boo and just hang out with your friends. It’s never healthy to be one of those Siamese couples who are attached at the head. You all know what I mean because everyone has one of those friends... and if you don't , you probably are that friend. For example, you invite your girl out for shopping and a movie and she shows up with her boyfriend, who greets you with, “Let’s get this shit over with so I can go to Best Buy.” Huh? That’s the best way to make all your friends hate you; and God forbid you break up with your boo, you’ll be crying over some random stranger at Starbucks shoulder because you haven’t seen any of your friends in months.


But let’s be real… the first scenario, going to the club with your other, does not happen most of the time. Most of the time, you’re home with your man, boo-lovin and ya’ll ain’t trying to go nowhere. Like my country cousin, Rico, so eloquently put it Friday Night, “I may have been planning to go to the club with my boys but fo’real, if she got that Aquafina wett wett, I ain't going NOWHERE!” (smh?) Yes, read that again. Aquafina. Wett. Wett. as opposed to what? Tap water of course! And with Aquafina wett wett purity is guaranteed. (It says so on the damn bottle!)


In conclusion, going out with your girl/guy can be cool. Going out for boy’s night or ladies night is most definitely necessary. But a night of Aquafina wett wett trumps ALL.

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I wanna shout out all my *FTN* (Fuck That Nigga!) girls (Bella, Taya...) and any potential new members (you wanna join?).

This is Rach, splashin’ Aquafina wett wett all over this blog.
Axe:Rachel